Studies, You ruined me!!!!!!

hahaha, Wow! Feeling palliate while writing against studies....

I never hate studies, but what if I had entirely or partially skipped it from my life. The system, whether societal or educational, didn't let us do so, we are always inclined to attain a most equilibrium  state in our life, and all that could be through studies. 

I had aspiration, inspiration, admiration, implication, insinuations and many more ".....tions" to opt for a life that could have been totally different of what I have chosen. Nobody is too matured to take their decisions at the age when we are supposed to. Likewise, we never realize how and when we hop to Schools, Colleges and Offices without even striving for what we had wished for us. 

It happens pathetic for not having a stable life after the age of 25 but what If you can win much more than an usual life. And to reach an usual life we generally commit dream homicide without endeavoring for our desires, that too includes least possible one......



I too had a dream, exactly similar like millions or trillions have, to be a proud member of 11 men blue color squad. I could have played the game for more time and in a more professional way but when and how the deviations came and went were anonymous. The love for it got vanished and studies took over my desire. 




And, not only this, yet some nerves in brain hanker to perform out for the crowd with guitar in arms facing lights and sounds with a band jumping on and off the stage . 

UHHUUU!!! I can feel the heat, it is making me  luxuriate.

I still play with my guitar skills decently and I love mentioning it to the public, I performed first time when I was in class 4th. However, it ended well without letting me start. I did play but for a minute or so. .. ....... .. 

          I DON'T HAVE A PENCHANT FOR SELF PRAISING, BUT SOMETIMES I DO !

Not only this, it includes my performance  in a girl's college for a competition . Although I only performed there and not played the guitar but held it  with utmost confidence, 

This post is unfolding lots of truths, I never planned to reveal so much, now revelation  embraces the most embarrassing truth. 

I was moving my lips, legs, butts, hands, stomach and head like a guitarist. But, a mike placed against me was pushed off or I forgot to switch it on, probability wins for both the cases I don't remember what happened exactly.



Studies, you ruined me in a sense that I am left with mark-sheets and certificates and have un-tuned my hobbies. 

I will revive all in near future, a challenge to you!!!

SHE! GIVE ME SOME TIME..

I want to spend some time with you!!

In that sultry weather, when sun was sucking all my nutrients. I wanted to have an ice cream or some chilled drinks, juice or anything that could make us feel comfortable together .

She was busy working for her college competition  and I was just roaming. She did notice me but that too for a while. I had no work, although lots of assignments, synopsys and projects were piled up which I had to submit but I was in no mood of completing them at that point of time. 

How can I gain her attention? I am not even muscular like most of my friends. I wish I could be a loafer and could shout at crowded roads but this skill is also missing in me.

Yaaa! I am such a talentless person. I am not sure if she likes my company but yes I m entertaining.
entertaing........ may be not.
Doubtful!!

I don't know how to sing a song to soothe her. I hardly dance. Romantic stuff is totally missing from my personality. Perhaps, philosophy without logic is all what I possess. 

I tried to approach but her classmates filled up the space. I quickly turned the other way and found a place less crowded for eternity. I arranged serene view, I could see her through gaps between the grass fencing about 20 feet distant and that too without anyone noticing me. I wanted to help her but she never asked for it. 

Buzz!!! My new android popped a message from the CR telling about the class scheduled at 2.... 

I had to go, leaving her alone doing her work, without saying bye.  I wanted to come back and sit just next to her. 

a blank mind!

No! I wasn't  busy preparing this post in last 2 months. I had a blank mind, difficult to explain causes and symptoms of this disease but it can be experienced at any point of time in life.

all that happens is similar to a sucking straw, hollow mind without ideas and intellect, you can feel air been passed from your two ears and nothing remains inside the brain.

                                                    YES! It was so BLANK. !!!

after having been spent the beautiful time in Mumbai, I was in Delhi for July, a month in Delhi metro was not entirely exhausting because of some endless moments best known to me.

6:30 A.M. to 9 or 9 :30 P.M., was a regular working hours for five days a week and I was left with weekends to enjoy, but I preferred long-never-ending sleeps, I slept for all decent time that was permitted and in rest of the time I was busy passing it.

I was wondering about my whats app status, it was unchanged throughout the month and it was a " , ', a punctuation mark . I wanted to have a blank status but my blank mind was so paralyzed to crack it and a simplest blankest status allowed by Whats App was comma and I chose it  over my effortless efforts.

Another interesting experience was August 2015, I hardly lived there, it came and went more speedily than any fastest transport ever existed. Probably, I skipped this month in the year 2015 and would become a first person to have lived just eleven months out of twelve months.

Perhaps, another blank mind with speed of INFINITY per  SEC!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



Supposedly, this excuse shall be accepted to hide my laziness for not  writing up a post for 2 months.  

               " A lazy man is never lazy because he is working continuously  LAZY "